Here is some stuff I need to.build.on: 1).Maturity - the acceptance of responsiblities . I am doing what I can to remedy the hurt and facing the consequences of my running away . Even though I was sick, I still.am responsible for the actionds andd choice ii took, even if i didn't ask to vbe sick. But I am willing to do everything i can within my effort and control to apologise and make up for all the wrongs and hurts. I found a job! Working out for Ns too. Trying to be there for my family and also to remedy the hurts I dealt to them Police report will probably be void . NS on the 12th of march ( yay!!!!!!) 2)strength - not just being strong always. simply picking yourself up when you fall. This time , I fell pretty low and hard. I have reduced myself to be like mud. I blame no one but myself, and even though there are many things I wish wouldn't happen , it had to happen..Now I know what I truly am and how i can be like when. i am at my lowest point of my life. But I will pick myself up from where I fell. 3) Wisdom - exercise wisdom even when you are.angry and depressed and overwhelmed by your mood. Not saying the things just to protect yourseelf but being wise. 4) consistency - !!!!! Need to be consistent.when I.am up and down! 5) Decisive - being resolute and sticking to my decisions, principle and character 6)Emotionally available - not to keep everything deep in my heartbut opening up what is truly inside. 7) sensitive- which is hard 8)understanding -so that I can forgive 9) courage - not just the absence of fear. 10) thrifty - GULP. Help me God ! hahahahahahaha , slowly but surely . tomorrow i will be going to Imh to see.the senior psychologist ( counselloror alike person but wo.uses.psychology to bring.therapeutic effect.)and will try to meet my brother and.apologise to him. Mangos at night :D Thank you to chay yeow and Marcus for.being here for.me when.I needd a friend. Your advice and.care.really helps. Pick yourself up, but continue loving. Be strong and of good courage


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