This few weeks , I think I broke 4 objects / stuff. Firstly, i broke a glass heart jar. Secondly yesterday , I broke a jar of fermented Tofu while looking for mango. Thirdly , I broke a lot of hearts Lastly , I broke my own liFe. When something smash into pieces , it is impossible to fix back the pieces to the original. That was true when I smash the glass jar and also the jar of fermented Tofu . Sort of have an epiphany . When the glass jar of fermented Tofu smash , I had to clean up after the mess. Was kind of afraid cause it is glass. step on a few and it hurts. And that was a bad stench of fermented Tofu . Had to take up the glass shards first and then the. fermented Tofu. and theen you wipe up all the sauce. And then you take a mop, clean it with soap and water , and clean it up and wash all the brooms, dust pans , and brooms clean. and then you clean up the glass shards and take it in a plastic bag and throw it all away. It was tedious , it was hard, painful and time consuming. But it was necessary. And then i got back to the mango. Another example was when I smash the glass jar of heart. I gave up, my effort , thinking it was hopeless. but because of love, [I did it anyway. I at first took all the glass shards and put it in a new jar , but my friend say I shouldn't do that. I know no matter how many sorry will bring back the glass jars. BUT you do what you can . And you love what you love a It's ok, I understand . I can only say a big thank you. I never expect you to understand. But I am really thankful, that at my lowest point of my life , even when it was impossible and you didn't understand , you stayed your longest. And that is more than enough for me. Be happy ! Thank you again and yes , my friends are here for me so don't worry so much. Be happy and love who you want to love and dream what you want to Be strong and of good courage !


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