Andrian is always a little too late. But he does it anyway . Out of love. But if it is impossible , it is ok. Andrian is still Andrian , he will still do it anyway . What is the point ? You still did it anyway , so many wrongs that cannot be undone. The essence of a relationship is that when she needs you the most , you will be there for her . But I left you alone, I hurt you, and I wish I could undo all that , but it 's not possible . But all I can do is try and give anyway. Feeling like what I am feeling, I can't sleep well, I can't eat well. But already too late. It's like the cruise, except you won't come back. I wish I could undo the wrongs but what is the point? The point is : I am sorry. I really am. I would do anything to just have a chance again but I can't. Especially not now. And that is just what it is.
But there was too much I didn't understand about myself which now I am trying to deal with.


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