There are two things I wanna learn :
1) the word "commitment"
I want to stay in the boat that Jesus will be in.

There 'a a children song that goes :
With Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm
Smile at the storm
Smile at the storm
With Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm,
As we go sailing home
Sailing , sailing home
Sailing , sailing home
With Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm,
As we go sailing home

I am used to running away when the ship is took shaky, or when it looks like it is sinking.

But

I want to be more committed. To God, to the church He placed me in , to cell group and to Jesus! But I am not disciplined at all.

But I want to lean on Your grace, mercy, love, joy and strength . I want to smile at the storm too.

2) crucified with Christ
There are things in my life that haunts me.
Night and day.

But I want to have a revelation of what the cruxifiction that Jesus went through did.
I want to be able to say that my old man has been crucified , the life that I lived , it is now Christ who lives in me.

I can't say that now, I know that Christ lives in me, but I can't say my old man has been nailed to the cross.



And I want to leave everything on the altar. There's too many things to worry about in my future and it frustrates me at times. But I trust that You have a future and purpose for me.









Lalalalala