Dear 2012,

I didn't like you. You were horrible and really mean. You pushed me so much I was sure there was no more further I can go and yet you kept pushing. I thought I would be just fine, but you blown me to smitherins. Hurdles after hurdles and pain after pain!




But

2012 was a year I didn't expect to have. Thank You God. I guessed the whole year could have stank as bad as I think it would but You intervened. You were in my year, and you stayed and was active in it. When I went through my difficulty , You were there. When I slid and fall, You caught me.


I am still pretty much down, but I am thankful for all the opportunity You gave me in 2012. Opportunites I squandered away like it was the free flow tissue paper dispenser in McDonald. Time after time, chance after chance, but I am still nowhere closer. Closer to being like You, to be the person You want me to be.


And I had much to look forward to, but it all fell apart. I am the one to blame. To this end, maybe I ran because I was afraid. I am ill-disciplined, and frankly irresponsible. Perhaps the worst.  My brain filled with unpleasant things, my heart robbed of happiness, my personality in shackles.

Forgive me for I have sinned against You and Heaven.






2013, I hope that I end the year smiling and not in this pitiful state that I am.


I ask Daddy God, that 2013:

I can truly be happy. Content. Thankful. Joyful. Generous.Kind.Forgiving.

And above all, I want to know You. And to be in a true relationship with You and not just a religion I practice as and when I feel like it.

I believe that
You are the son of God. Jesus Christ. Against all the petty knowledge I can get from this world and all the facts, theology and history, I believe in Your word.


Set me free. From my past, my sadness, my everything. I give it all to You in the hope that I can be free.


And whoever the Son sets free is free indeed.









Lalalalala