Anger

maybe I can't suppress it nor could I act maturely when it happens.


But perhaps it's just my flesh allergic reaction to an uneasy situation where you feel like the whole world against you or that someone's acting like an asshole.


But ultimately, a "Sorry" , cheap as it is, is the medicine to suppress it.

I acted like I was nine again, when I shouted at my father to tell him he was freaking tortoise for ditching my mum and going out with some chick from malaysia, and that he was never my father and never will be able to provive a father's love and that he was the one giving constant pain to my mom.

Only to realise, after he never called again, that it was my mum who dump him, and that my mum knew he was already married to that malaysia chick, and he was really trying to love me once in a long while.

He never called back. 9 years gone and yet he still hasn't contacted me.

Maybe anger is no solution but it is an awakening, to the hell of a wreck we truly are .


Lalalalala