So today:

I went to school early. Felt excited for the day for the first time=x Then at first it was great. Maths stats was good. Then the study break 5 hours, which I spent in the library with hannah, joseph, su wei and caroline.

Had a great chat with Hannah. I learnt a lot about her. It's ok, you will definitely find someone better, cause you are worth more=D

And then, back to today.

I feel like...WHY am I hesistating to apologise? It seems so hard, I mean, just to find the perfect time and perfect moment, and the courage and guts needed to tell her straight in her face that you are sorry.

Maybe because, you make the same mistake TWICE. She will probably blow up and kill you or something. But surprise she didnt. But you know, she's so professional about it that it hurts.

And then, what guranteen can thy give to her that you wont do it again? Even if you mean it, will she find the same security in my words?

I wish today, I had the courage to stand up for what is right.
But there is always the right time and right place to apologise, and now is not the time.

Get well soon, MRSPOWER. Know you are sick and slightly feverish with a dose of headache and your parents must have hurt you by their lack of care...but maybe they dont know you are sick. Please take plenty of rest and drink lots of water and get well! If it doesnt get better, see a doctor.






And today, I just thought of all the silly moments we had and smile to myself like a big idiot.


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