Yesterday, I was slacking at house, laying on my bed and hugging my pillow and attempting to take a nap.

Then Cs call me ask me want to hang out with him and Joseph.

OF COURSE! But I took my own sweet time a bit, cause they were doing project work first, before we catch iron man 2.

In the end, we just hang out in the library, sit there and chill, CS and joseph cannot meet dead line, so in the end we didnt catch no movie. And all I did there was waste time on my lap top and listening to music and watch some band's MV.

But it was just being there was the greatest sunday there. To be accepted and just be around people. To not have to fear anything and chat your heart out (in the library still), to talk about boys topic but with the rolling of eyes, to laugh at stupid joke, and to waste time.

Different people have different language of loved/expressing love.

For me, I feel loved when you spent time with me. By spending your time with me, you make me feel important, and loved. Even if we do absolutely nothing, sitting there or standing, not a word said or a thousand word. Because to me, your time spend on me are never too insignificant. Nor too wasting.

And I always appreciate it. No matter how short or small you think it is.

But surprise, my way of expressing love is in giving gift and words of affirmation.

So in the end we went to sushi house to indulge in JAPANESE FOOD=D. DELIIIICIOUS-TO.
Ebiko+salmon+rice+fried scallop=Fullfillment.

Thank you , CS and joseph, you made me more than happy and content. Love to spend more time hanging out!

Then today, I think I sort of...hmmm...To me,

I am being normal but not myself. I am on the defensive. From hurting myself or anyone. So I act indifferent. There isnt a lot I can do. I look at your faces and all I see is something else other than receptive and loving.


And there is sometimes, hmmm...Nothing to look forward to in school.

Never mind, Daddy will go with me. Everywhere I go. Every people I have to face. I believe, everything will turn out better.

And we know that all things will turn out good to those who love God, to those who are called accoring to His purpose.


Lalalalala