So today,

at first I didnt want to go school at all. Was tired, didnt want to face it, was trying to think myself out of it...


In the end, I left home. Reach school at 9.40am. Because I seriously wasnt in the mood, and I felt super bad about myself, I went design eat breakfast, took a long walk around the school, collect my ez link, then got stomach-ache. Then I mass sweat in the toilet which I dont know why.

In the end, as I predicted, I didnt miss much.

And then lesson ended, I went library with shi ting to study.Because I didnt have money and I didnt want go with them...Thank you for going library with me=) Then we talk talk talk, then caroline and co came, and we talk talk talk study, then caroline and co left. Then the second group came, the usuals.

Most of them just went away, never bother talk to us. Obvious reason. I was there...
Joseph and Jasmine came=) thanks to you two. Joseph came then walk away...Jasmine talk to me and shi ting for a long while...then we went for lesson together.

Then PIPC tut...firstly lecturer late. Second, she never apologise, only explain why she is late. Thirdly , her hong kong accent was quite strong, and fourthly , she pissed me off . Her attitude is beyond... good. So thanks to her amazing accent, I got myself and jasmine into a scolding from her. (OXIGIN, NITROGIN, FLURIN). Then she say go to the board and draw, but dont know what she meant, so we ask her a question. Then she went all bi-atch and shout at both of us saying like " WHAT YOU DONT KNOW WHAT TO DRAW? WERENT YOU LISTENING?!!"

Ya then I like write the right answer, then is all words, no drawing, then she say "Ah you go do very well. You all have knowledge." Was like pissed at her for...15minutes HAHAHA...then in the end we went HAP...

But we left at about 10mins into the lesson to find the PIPC lecturer to teach us...really understand everything after she teach us. But i felt very bad...cause the only one out of the group that didnt went was Jasmine. I should have accompanied her=/ Shouldnt have left her sitting all alone ...Sigh.

Today , I thought it would be bad. But it wasnt THAT bad. It was a bit at first, I felt very sucky. Wanted to straight apologise to him, but also dont know will make him more angry. Stupid me... draft the message dont dare sent...thought of going home and sent it to him.

In the end in PIPC , after much "encouragment" , he try to break the ice. That was it. I straight sent him the message.And I mean every word, I am sorry.

Walk with her back to tamp. Talk a lot haha. I think I strike a nerve somewhere when I commented she was quite wild... Sorry. But you are super controversial already haha...

And then I met CS for dinner...Man, he's just the same as he is! Still the same guy that I could pour my heart out with, who I can depend on, who is one of my best bros...And I couldnt find a reason to be angry with him=) I love him as my brother, and he came, cell group was good, then we all went home.

SO much I need to catch up with CS, so much I share with him, so much I hear from him. It's like a guys thing to talk about who you like/ who the other guy like when they havnt seen each other for a while HAHA. I know you truly are back...cant believe it a bit. But you are back. I welcome you with open arms. AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT REALLY UNDERSERVING $50 LOAN! THANK YOU.

So in terms of debt wise : zinc$10, jazz$10, Nicholas xi $9, CS $50...$79 >_<

I need money, I need God, I need more close friends, and I need forgiveness.

And when I keep telling CS about all about what happened recently, it's still there somehow...that feeling just either went denial...or it just progressed to beyond just a feeling. Maybe, just maybe, I can continue deceiving myself.


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