Not everyone likes me. Not everyone treats me as their friend, some people hate me.

And I dont think I am anyone best friend except to those who are/was in my E412 family like Jacob and CS.

And sometimes I just hate being that person no one can be best friend with, just very very very close but not best friends with. And some times you try REALLY hard to be Mr nice.

But you screwed up and stuff. People dont like you as much as they do for their other fiend.

Guess I am just not best friend material for those who are in my class. But thank you to those who still treats me nice and stuff even though I suck.

Never mind, I found a long lost best friend. His name is CS and he rocks! HAHAHAHA.

And I always got my Jacob who is silent but there. And I got my DADDY GOD .

I am sick of attempting to fit in . So I will just be nice to everyone, and care for them just as I care for my E412 family. I know people wont treat me like best friend anymore. And I dont bother to be call best friend anymore. It does hurt to see people call other people best friend and not finding your name there even though you are close to the person...


LIKE "BLAH, BLAH , BLAH, BLAH, and BLAH ARE MY BEST FRIEND"...it's degrading to see everyone else name BUT YOUR FREAKING NAME. It sucks, it feels bad. You think of things that you havnt done/ done wrong to make the person treat you like best friend, and it spirals down to lost of confusion and worry ....


But, guess that's life. Not everyone loves you. But doesnt mean you have to be like them. Gonna treat everyone like best friend even if they arent my best friend. Even if I dont really like them. Love is accepting but not apporving

Because my best friend list is super short. Close friend a lot. Friends is VERY A LOT.
Dont need to say it out, they know who they are=) if you dont, pretend=)


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