sigh...

Another emotional unhealthy day.

It was like Up , DOWN, DOWN DOWN DOWN , UP , DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN, Up, PISSED , DOWN.

Pissed the thing lasted so long, until 10pm, then still wanted to drag on with chicky dance. Got so furious, I felt like scolding something damm bad...but I didnt. Phew. In the end they canceled it, but I left with some of the girls before that...felt very bad to leave the others behind=/

Had a good chat with shi ting. She's quite a good friend=) really talk to her and deep down in the heart chat. Good good, thanks for sharing.

Andrian, you are seriously in troubleX_X Gosh, why I always...

I couldnt even lie to the lecturer without feeling bad after 5 seconds where I apologise and told her I was joking. Sucks. You are too honest, obvious, and you are all over the place....stress.

At first, it was really bad. I thought you completely didnt even want to be my friend anymore which will be the worse thing ever. And at first it felt super weird to look in your direction, and I was like shy and embarrassed all of a sudden...But surprise, if you ever saw it, it didnt affect you as much as what it affects the other who blew it up like some inflatable hot air balloon.


But I mean some of the classmate were a bit nasty. Especially Jasmine and wymer, took the joke a bit far ...Which was bad la, given my current sucky feeling and totally confused condition.

Are you shocked? From what I heard from my informant, you went OMG! *smiles.

And so for now, this is what I am going to do: Nothing. I didnt plan to, and dont want to. I mean, I wanted to wait and stuff, but blah. Gosh la. This is bad. But I dont want to rush into anything...and get myself stuck.

Love is not a competition , but I am winning, or at least I thought,but there's no way of knowing,of knowing....


Lalalalala