So yesterday...

I called her. And then we just had a heart to heart talk.


And then I feel very bad for being angry with her, because it was a misunderstanding...I am sorry.

But then we are like best friends now. Good=) Thank you for not being angry with me being angry with you=X

And today, I feel like a big idiot. I knew it was bad, but I didnt know it was that bad. I feel like leaving the class straight at the first lesson which was HAP tutorial.

And then, the rest of the whole day sucked. Although I try very hard to act like I was normal, and taking advise from all of them to just dont be bothered and break the ice, it was just weird.

You cant pretend nothing happened when everything and the whole thing happened. But then being super cold and feeling awkward and lack of courage got her angry...she thought I was ignoring her.

SIGH.But I really try. To break that big chunk of ice berg in front of me.


But, thank you. You dont know how much your message meant. Thank you for wanting to just tell me in person. Thank you for being honest.

Today I lose hope in fitting in...And today I lose hope. Hope to be myself, hope to be Mr nice and stuff...all lost.

And tomorrow, I will be ok. Because tomorrow is better.

But right now, let's survive this night. And find back all those memories and stars you wish upon.


Lalalalala