You can still bleed in your heart while smiling. And you can have a nightmare about a super big dog, losing $10 in a game, and still think about this slight part in the dream where you smack your friend cause he said the thing you dont want to hear...

Yesterday, I think I sort of...survive. Living. Apparently your heart can bleed, a lot, but you can still survive. Tears, they do dry up. But that doesnt mean you feel good. You can sit there and tell people you're fine, but hey, you know you are bleeding.

And today I receive my school orientation thingy. It's 4 days...Sucks, have one overnight day(pui) and no jeans)$@#$%#*. Everyday must wear some stupid sports attire.

Not for me, I am just going to wear something flexible. It's going to be boring. How do I Know what's my blood group? My mum's O, so it's down to o, a , b. AB is not my enjoyment. It's going to be something, to meet new people, but you know, you dont care.

You really dont care. You still bleeding. But you are better now. Not going to do anything stupid, but not going to do anything worth doing. Because you dont want to.Because you are Andrian, and you dont care.

In fact, yesterday I didnt even try to care much. I just did what I can. But sucks to be me. Sucks to be me.


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