Back to square 1.

Yesterday, after a talk with valerie , and after facing it, I decided that I have to let go.

Forgive, forget, then letting go. Letting all the hurts go away, without anything and to move on.

One thing, was that it doesnt mean it doesnt hurt. It will be awkward. But we are stil best friend. Totally erase all hopes, and moving on.

If the past was good, then the future will be better. The hurts going to leave some scar I guess, and it will be hard. Life wont turn all good all of a sudden. But there's an advancement and improvement.

So let's go back to square 1. The square 1 where no lines was crossed, no tears shed, no heartache, and no pain. Would be fun.

Not going to try hard to look out for anyone. The only fish in the ocean who I want, I let it go. Not going to fish anymore. Going to sit down there and do something else.
Like my job. GOING TO GET THAT TUITION JOB@($$%~!!!!! AND TO GET A HAIR CUT. And maybe , get a new life. A new hope. Something to chase after, something to commit all over again, something to be an adventure, something to not let it trigger again.

Goodbye , miss special, you still leave a place in my heart,and it's going to be pain in the ass when I remember all the good times, but now, we are just BFF. Maybe someday, something may happen. But let's leave it as best friend.

It's not goodbye. It's moving on, and being something new. We move on to another great milestone of our life, and living isnt just living. We do what we think is meaningful, and we going to do even greater things.

All the best. From your best friend, Andrian. WHO IS HUNGRY and what the heck SAKAE BUFFET?@($@#* I WANT TO EAT>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> nah forget it, when I get the $$$$ I going to have that every week.

And poly, let's just hope out of the 50 class mate, 10 are cranky, 5 nerds, 10 weirdos, 10 average/normal, 5 sports guru, 5 gamers, and the last 5 to be my best friend.

CAUSE I AM SO @#*$&@#% STUCK AT MY HOME AND MY GUY BEST FRIEND IS IN FREAKING TAIWAN!!!!!!!!!!!! But nonetheless , I will find someone to hang out with AFTER I GET SOME CASH. Let's go do it desperate way. Valerie tell me to call back the agency who didnt tell me anything . Oh well=) Life's back to the chaotic survival stress mode, but hey, not complaining.


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