so...Friday.

You called me and you sounded sick. Really sick that kinda feeling. At first i hesistated to do anything cause my mum was buying lunch. But i realise you were more important. So i just bathed and make sure i got everything and left home. And then i spent a 30mins looking for my mum to tell her DONT buy lunch for me but couldnt find her so i rushed down. End up you werent that sick=) good, and then i just spent the afternoon with you...Sweet=)

Watch movie with you even at home can be so simple and yet personal. I like the feeling. I wish can spent more time like that with you=)

And then saturday...you surprised me even though i was between expecting and doubting it. Ha.Althought the event wasnt so great... but i liked it. Cause you were there. And saturday sucked after the event...so many quarrels...Someone sent me messages in 3am which anger me, and i told him i didnt like the way he did it, and he thinks i am half asleep. Was boiling mad at 6am in morning.Had to sms him in BLOCK LETTERS then he know i am seriously angry...

Sunday: shopping with jacob. Good shopping but my mood was somewhere else. Guess another 96 dollars spent isnt that bad...But i was disappointed. When you went off work, and we had dinner with you...Perhaps i was abit smiling and stuff but the events that happened after that cause my face to ...stiffen. Not feeling that well and stuff...find it hard to smile...

Had problem sleeping this few days...Insomnia filled with nightmare and night terror. I feel like between sleeping and waking up at every interval of my sleep.

Surprise, even with insomnia, i tend to wake up at 4.30am(+/- 30 minutes) every day, and just think about you. Weirdest thing to do, when you have sleeping disorder, but kinda feels good.

And today i feel...apathy. So deprive of feelings except for slight sorrow. Not feeling best of myself...

Hope differ makes the heart sick.

Why am i upset that you wanted to abort the plan? Maybe, because you didnt tell me earlier. And then so many things happened this weekend=.="

And then, you just pop up in my head more and more , miss special. In a good way=)


Lalalalala