the worse and best thing happened at the same time... AND then keep spiralling downwards and upwards at the same time.

Tentatively, i guess i should be over the moons. I am. HAHA=) IT's good to know the thing...

But it disrupt my entire train of thought and stuff and then the thing would probably spiral down another train...

So the thing was someone say something that i didnt expected the person to know. The thing was that devastingly crazy that it was weird...And combined with the stunned ? face, it form into something known only as anxiety and attacked me. HA. Running around like you freaked out...

BUT IT DOES MATTER A LOT. SO many things on my mind about this, about that about my mind, about you and stuff..if anything was weird, that day was. So It's complicated. I am sorry if you think i am kinda slow and whatever ...but i didnt want to just tell you. Kinda idiot, and kinda freaked out...i was thinking something like that would happened but i didnt expect it to...

NOW i understand why you said you know something that makes me an idiot...BUT ...It was kinda... But you do know, my heart is definitely yours, miss special. ...And yet, i am kinda...clueless...and a bit anxiety and stuff...

MY FAMILY IS TAKING THIS IN A WEIRD MANNER. TRUST ME...HAHAHAHA! IF you heard what my family said you will probably laugh yourself to death...

And everyone seems to not take this lightly and in a contemporary manner...but i dont know. Now is like the most crucial period. CANT let you wait, but dont know what to do. IT'S ALL SO... AND THEN WEIRD stuffs, and weird things to do...

NEXT WEEK IS GOING TO BE A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGG Week.

BUT i thank God , HE sure blows me aways! Weirdest day...

And did you know, that the day was just 3 month from the first day i make my decision to do whatever and whatever?

My feelings for miss special...so many things...and yet she blown me away...


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